1:38am and I'm still wide awake with no sign of sleepiness at all. No, its not because of coffee or any medication, I'm just not sleepy. Had a chat with Mr.Rockstar minutes ago, exchanged good nights, and I'm sure he's asleep by now.
People say, once you are in a relationship, you start to loose yourself. You'll loose your balance and you'll be consumed with the idea of being perfect or trying hard to please your partner. As for me, Mr.Rockstar has inspired me to loose weight and its not because I want to impress him. I do it because I simply want to and he just encouraged me to do so. To like a person, you have to like him/her just they he/she is. I adore you just the way you are Mr.Rockstar and I adore your so-called buncit belly (tak buncit pun!!!). I'm into this diet regime and he is backing me up as long as I don't endanger my health.
I'm always dreaming about being skinny or at least shredding few (or more) stones. Would it make a difference? Would people notice me more? I confessed, I was fat back in varsity and I got dumped just because I was no longer the cute skinny girl. I got dumped just because I was fat and I would have punched at my ex, but instead I yelled at him, walked away and cried in the car. I was noticed as the fat girl who drives a small car. It hurts. No one would notice me unless they needed help for assignments or lecture notes. I was used, I admit. That was the turning point, I've got to change.
Should I change to impress others? Should I change because I want too? Should I change because I'm being pressured? Should I change because I want to prove to others and rub-it into their faces that I've lost weight? Should I change because I want to be noticed? Should I change because it will make me happier? Whatever the reason is, I'm doing this for real and I'm sticking to it this time. Salute, to the new me!
2 comments:
ur just fine dear..
focus on the main objective to diet which is for your health and not about pleasing others.
Yes. it makes u feel good about urself but most importantly; do it so that your body stays healthy. ur still young; u want a healthy family too im sure. Do it for that ok. :)
Superboy, your encouragement and support is most valued. I have to admit that I'm obsessed with loosing weight lately. It's a challenge that I put myself into as I would really love to have a new figure by my 30th next month.
Catch up for breakfast soon yeah Superboy!!!
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